Hey people! I know I’ve been extremely M.I.A. for the last 2 weeks. Things are just a little hectic right now. I’m just trying to maintain but it’s always something. I don’t wanna get into it here. So hopefully it’ll work itself out. I noticed yesterday that I hadn’t blogged since Germane passed. (Major thanks to everyone and your kind words. It really helped me get thru such a hard time.  I appreciate that.) I would come to my site everyday with the intention on saying something but soon as I’d see him, I’d close my site. I’m even writing this right now in notepad just to make sure I actually blog today. It’s hard to lose a good friend like this. I have never had to bury a friend. I talk to him like he’s still here LOL I thought I was losing my mind til someone else told me they do it too.

I made a new site the other day.  All you creative geniuses…artists, designers, photographers…Please join my new community forum DOPE MB.  This is really important to me.  I know a lot of creative people online.  So I made a place for us all to chill and share our dopeness with each other. 

In other news…Kimoni Graduated Kindergarten on the 10th. Look at my pretty boy.

OMG I was so freakin proud of my baby. It was the best feeling ever. And he was so proud of himself too. He smiled and giggled the entire day. Wow…I am so old. My big guy will be six this August. My how time fly’s. His dad and the siblings even managed to show up. I was quite surprised. He knew Kimoni was graduating but was waiting for an invitation to come to the service. Umm, why do I need to invite him to participate in his child’s life? But nonetheless he didn’t open his mouth all week about it. I ended up sending him a text message the night before telling him where it was and stuff. I was glad he came. Kimoni was happy. He had an excellent week until Saturday. Like all good things…they must come to an end. *sigh* Nataka is in jail. Surprised? I’m not. Not in the slightest. Disappointed yes, surprised..hell no.  There’s no telling how long he’ll be in there because I’m surely not adding to the collection plate towards his $25,000 bail. HA!! Nigga please. Aww, and it was the day before Father’s Day. Way to go Dad! And that’s all I can think to say about that fuckery.

Moving right along…I’m thirsty for a new life. Something different. I really want to move out of my current apartment into a new one. I need a change of scenery. Alright..I’m doing it again. SMH Every couple of months I get bit by the new scenery bug. I start looking at houses in places I don’t plan to move to any time soon and I get lost in the thought of a new and better life. I have decided…I NEED A REAL VACATION. Not some meet & greet. Not somebodies birthday party. I need to go away to an island where I can relax in some water all day long while being fed frozen grapes and immediate refills of Parrot Bay & Cranberry Juice. Ahhh…doesn’t that sound nice. Some place I can walk around my hotel room nekkid and run out to the beach from my room and roll my way across the sand and right into the water without people taking out their cameras. *sigh* Oh my god that sounds fun. But seriously…I need a Monika-ism. Just a weekend. I don’t know where to go tho. For some reason San Diego keeps coming to mind. Beautiful beaches, minimal clubs and very small chance of me running into anyone I know. *slaps myself back to reality*

Anyhoo…I have updated my layout, and music playlist. I’m in a Neo-Soul vibe right now. So these are a few of my favorites. Enjoy!

If you go anywhere in the world…where would you go?
Would you go alone or with family?

Oh yeah…before I forget.  Deon tagged me a few days ago with a Meme Fun Tag. In return I am tagging uhh..no one yet. I gotta see who’s active cause I been M.I.A.

What was I doing 10 years ago?
I was 17 and with my son’s father.  Cutting school, stealing cars, breaking things, living in a girls group home and having sex. Not necessarily in that order. But you get the point.

What are 5 things on my to-do list today?
1. Laundry
2. Clean my room.
3. Wash the rest of the dishes.
4. Clean the bathroom.
5. FInish adding things to DOPE MB.

Snacks I enjoy:
Chip & Guacamole
Chex Mix

Things that I would do If I were a billionaire:
Buy any and everything my family and closest friend wanted and needed.  I would take care of those who always looked out for me.Probably buy a couple homes and build teen group homes.

People I want to know more about:
Like I really need to know more people LOL I know plenty.

Dear Germane,
I still cannot believe this. My heart aches so bad right now. Man, you just don’t know. It’s amazing how here I was just talking to you a few days ago and now you are gone. I honestly don’t know where to start with this. I guess I want to say that you were much more than a friend to me, you were my best friend. We had so many fun times together. From sitting up on the phone all day and night, watching movies, eating shrimp, playing video games, cruising the city, riding the coast on your bike, to just chillin doing absolutely nothing at all like friends do. I’ll miss those special moments that are now memories. I’ll miss your smile. I don’t think I have ever seen a frown on your face come to think of it. If you didn’t have a smile on your face it’s cause you were too busy sucking your thumb. LOL (ol’ stank thumb). I’ll miss your hugs. God, I’ma really really miss those. You owned the hugging game hands down. Nobody knows how to embrace and lift me off the ground like you did. I’ll miss your motivation. You were the most motivated person I know. So driven and destined to be successful. And you were. You did any and everything you set your mind to. You never let anybody tell you “No“. I admired your ambition and strength so much. I’ll miss your advice. Whenever I had a problem I couldn’t understand you were who I turned to. You gave me so much direction and inspiration. You have changed my life many times and I don’t think I ever told you that. Thank you for being my friend. My heart breaks for your family, your daughter, your friends…anyone that knew you. Because I know that anyone that crossed paths with Germane Harris was blessed by an angel. Rather it be just for a moment or long term, they were blessed to have known you.

We were best of friends for 8 years and I will carry you in my heart forever. I will never forget everything you have done for me. I only wish that we could continue to grow old together and live our lives happily. Now I don’t have to worry about you anymore. I know you are safe now. Germane, I love you. Until we meet again…I say goodbye but only in the flesh. Your spirit still surrounds me and you will never be forgotten. Rest In Peace Germane.

( P.S. I know you hate this picture of us LOL but it’s the only one I have of us without our eyes closed or something extra retarded..smh. You always knew how to mess up our pics. Yeah, I’m blaming you Much Love, “Bad Andy” )

(click here to read the article on Germane Harris’ death. If you know anything about this please contact the SFPD. We need to get these murderers off the streets.)

I have had a few stalkers in my years of being on the internet. Many of times I have wondered why do people bother being obsessed over lil ol’ me? Am I really that important? I mean, to my family and close friends I am. But this is the internet. It’s an outlet for resources and entertainment. My time online is purely entertainment. Nothing more, nothing less. Yet regardless of that fact I still manage to piss people off to the point of them going on an emental rampage. I would apologize but why? I am me for a reason. Yes, I can be mean. And yes, I may sometimes hurt you with my words. However, you will Never say that I sugarcoated anything. I’m real. I say exactly how I feel. Never faked. I deny nothing, and admit and stand behind everything that comes from my mouth. You either like me or you don’t. It’s that simple. Following me from site to site, spying on my social networks from afar, visiting my site 50 times a day, etc. etc. I can deal with. I kinda get a kick out of sometimes. I admit that. But creating fake accounts using my picture? Are you that lame? This is the internet. What pleasure does it give someone to pretend to be someone other people think is the person in the photo? Wouldn’t it be more fun being you instead of pretending to be me? I thought so until today.

I was browsing MySpace and chatting with my girl Keke about her recent stalker who has resurfaced. And for some reason, I decided to search MySpace for the name “Upenzi”. People are always asking what it means because it’s such a unique user name. It never really dawned on me that someone else might have the name too. Although you would have to be familiar with the Swahili language to even hear it, it’s still a possibility. Yet so far for the last 6 years I have managed to be the only Upenzi online. You can imagine my pure shock when I see this:

http://myspace.com/372486750

This is NOT my MySpace page. But that is my picture. Someone has created a MySpace using my name ‘Upenzi’ and my photo. However, I do not live in Minnesota and I am not 28. I’m a little ticked off that the profile is private because I really want to see what’s going on on that page. It’s also interesting to know that this profile has been around at least 2 months from what I can tell. I’ve reported it to MySpace. They are pretty good about deleting fakes so hopefully they hurry up.

Then I’m sitting on Twitter tonight and someone asks me if I have a new Twitter Page. I’m looking all confused and puzzled. Then a few people tell me that someone requested an add request and it looked like my page and they they added 43 of my friends already. I find this.

http://twitter.com/THEREALupenzi

This is NOT my Twitter page. But that is my picture and design as you can see. What’s even funnier is that they just did this today. Because I just updated my photo on Twitter this morning after discovering the MySpace page.

So someone is seriously stalking the shit out of me. I have a suspect in mind but don’t really want to drop any names. Only because they have finally left me alone (I think) so I don’t want to bring them into it if this happens not to be them at all. It’s really kinda pathetic when you really think about it. Who has time to do shit like this?

I guess I should feel special but I really just feel watched. Which makes me uneasy considering this is not what I get online for. I have been through this before. I have even been stalked to the point of people trying to pinpoint my exact location, to guys and girls telling me they know me in the club, to guys yelling my username in the street, to people adding me on Yahoo and telling me how long they have been following me, the list literally goes on and on and on. You would really think that I spend so much time on hella different sites. But I really don’t. I signup for sites just like the next social networking person. However, 80% of them I’m not even active on. I just sign up cause my friends do or just to check it out. Rarely do I return.

I’m only really active on: FullFiggas, MySpace & Twitter. I plan to delete all other accounts that I think I’m on that are not in use. If you don’t see the Social Networking button on my site that links you directly to ME then it is NOT me and I suggest you block that person and report them as an impostor. If you see my photos posted on any other site besides those listed on here, it is NOT me.

To the person or people who keep taking my photos (which by the way will only be on Friends Only on Flickr):

Will The Real Upenzi Please Stand Up!!

Hey people! Sorry about the long downtime. I had to correct some things in order to keep the show on the road. I’m proud to say that all is well now! So what’s been up with me? Same ol, same ol. Working and enjoying life. At the present moment I’m packing. Where am I going you ask? New York!! Wooohooo!! My best friends birthday party is tomorrow night and I’m flying in to celebrate. I travel way too much sometimes I swear. Its funny because I never imagined I would see so many places. So far I have been to the following places:

Las Vegas, NV (3), Brooklyn, NY (2), Atlantic City, NJ (1), Long Beach, CA (3), San Antonio, TX (1), Delaware (2), Philadelphia, PA (2), Los Angeles, CA (1) - Damn that’s a lot. And I’m not even done yet. I’ll be headed to Baltimore, MD in August and Long Beach, CA again in October. Whew…I need a private jet! LOL

Oooo…have you all seen my new hair yet? I know I have some of you on my Flickr contacts. But in case you have missed it, check it out. I’m so in love with my hair!! And everyone seems to think it’s really sexy. The red pops too! Go Me, Go Me!!

I’ma go finish backing my back. I’ma look like a lil duffle bag girl with this Gucci duffle. LOL I don’t see the point in packing a huge suitcase when I’ll only be there one day.

Do you travel a lot?
Where are some places you’ve been?
Places you want to travel to one day?

OOPS I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED THE COMMENTS FOR THIS POST WHICH IS WHY THERE ARE NONE. I DIDN’T BACK IT UP PROPERLY….MY BAD. THANKS TO THOSE WHO DID COMMENT!

Yee: An urban term derived from the San Francisco Bay Area of California meaning excitement or the agreement of one being in an excited state of mind.

Ok I just made myself laugh. So you wonder what exactly am I Yee‘ing for? Well I wonder that too. Considering the fact that I have been sick since Sunday with a cough, runny nose, sneezing and body aches. Man, shit is bad. On top of that I went to the dentist yesterday just to get my teeth cleaned and walked out with 2 new fillings. How the hell I get 2 cavities? I was so disappointed. I haven’t had cavities in over a decade. Not to mention I don’t eat a whole lot of candy. Except those Mexican Mango Chili suckers I love to death. Yum!

But I don’t eat a lot of those. Other then that the only other sweet thing I consume in mass quantity would be tea. I LOVE Tea. Iced cold Arizona tea is my favorite.

So I’m assuming that could be how that happened. I’m certainly not going to stop drinking my tea tho. I’ll just brush my teeth when I finish a bottle. So anyhoo…where was I? Oh yeah, sick, with fillings, and my hernia hurts. When I was pregnant with Kimoni I popped a muscle in my tummy. He was rotating in my belly and it scared me so I sat up hella fast. When I did I popped a stomach muscle aka the hernia. It hurts like a bitch right now. I think I’m go to the doctor tomorrow if it doesn’t feel any better. It usually only bothers me when I eat too much and the pressure is on my tummy. I think all the sneezing and coughing has caused it to ache right now.

Other then that, I’m great. Hard to believe but I am. I have been living my life like its golden and simply taking it all in. Recently some things were brought to light about a certain someone who shall remain nameless. And let’s just say “I see you and I have something for you”. Oh my Mother’s Day was excellent. Happy Mother’s Day to those I didn’t speak to then. Look at the lovely cards I got.

The Heart & Butterfly were made by Kimoni. The one in the middle with the bears was given to me by my lil sister. I had a nice day even at work .

I’ma cut this blog short for now, its time to go home. I just wanted to update and let folks know I’m still alive…YEE!!

They say if “It’s not broke don’t fix it”. Well, I had made some major changes to my site a few days ago and I really wasn’t feeling it so i switched it back. I even went old school with a layout I already used. This was always one of my favorites. Hope you don’t mind the repeat. I noticed my blog is missing some things since I last updated.

Note To Self:
*Signature Image
*Font Titles
*Network Buttons
*Comment Luv

Toodles!!